Time changes everything

It seems to me that time really changes everything. For me I think that going to school for so long and then working has made time fly by these last couple of years. Some of the great friends that I once thought I had just disappeared. I had a friend in high school that I was very close with and over the summer one year we got into this argument and things have been so different between her and I. It is so weird when I see her because I think about all the great times that we had and all the things that we did in the past. It is really sad to see how time and life really changes people and things seem like they will never be the same. Then I have other friends that I can go days, weeks, or even months without talking to and nothing ever changes. It is really astonishing to see how you know who your real friends are when time goes by. It is great to be able to pick up where you left off in a friendship when you talk to that person again.

Some of my friends are married, getting married or are in long term relationships. It is great to have people in our lives that are in the same "boat" that we are in. It is easier to talk to them about certain things and to have them so that you both have someone to confide in. The thing is, is that you dont know. People come into your life at different points. Some people you become best friends with, friends with, acquaintances, or even enemies. It is so difficult to choose who you should really be close with and sometimes you pick out the wrong people and end up getting hurt.

I have some amazing people in my life. Many times I think about how things have changed us and how there are certain times when we are so busy that we never talk. I know that I have been blessed to have some of the best friends that I have since school and then some great people that I have met along the way. It is just a journey to see who really is with you when you need someone or how even though time may changed us how close we are still. It is also hard when people move but the great things is is that no matter what you know that they are still your friend and nothing can change that!

Kreativ Blogger award

I want to thank amber and michelle for giving my the Kreativ Blogger award.I know that I do not get on a lot and post so it means a lot that they do read what I write and like it as well.

The Rules:

1.) Thank the person who gave this to you.

2.) Copy the logo and place it in your blog.

3.) Link the person who nominated you.

4.) Name 7 things about yourself that no one would really know.

5.) Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers.

6.) Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.

7.) Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know you nominated them!

So 7 things about myself that no one would really know....

1. I love to make food for my friends and family more than I like to cook for my husband because they appreciate it more!

2. I love to listen to Disney music it soothes my soul and makes my day so much brighter!

3. I am patiently waiting to know if our little baby is going to be a boy or a girl.

4. I love the fall because I like to wear hoodies.

5. I love to wear polka dots on my toenails all year long.

6. I wish i could wear flip lops year round.

7. I would rather have one day a week off than the weekend so that I can get things done around the house!

My Nominees for the Kreativ Blogger Award are:

1. Jill at "Big House Creations"

2. Rita at "There Beneath Blue Suburban Skies I sit"

3. Laura at "Just my days"

4. Jessica at "Live. Love. Write"

5.Bobbie at "Bobbie Brown Photography"

6. Ashley at "Dog tags and Pearls"
7. And of course amber and michelle!

our little one

I know that I have not been on a lot lately but I have been really busy! My mom has been in town for the last few weeks and I have been spending a lot of time with her! I have also been working a lot! I have been looking for a teaching job as well which does not look so promising which sucks really bad!

Anyways Russ and I went to the doctor yesterday and we got to see our little gummy bear as the woman called the baby! The little heartbeat was so exciting and I am so glad that Russ was able to go with me. It was such a great thing to see when you have been tired lately and nauseous but it seems like you are just maybe sick. It is so great to see what is making all these changes occur. I also was excited to see that we are further along that I had thought. 8 wks and 5 days and the due date is the 18th of April!!! My birthday is the 16th so that is a little exciting!!!

Here is a picture of the ultrasound of our little gummy bear.

Wedding Stuuf

All of you probably know by now that my friend Amber is getting married, which is so exciting!!!! I was looking at all of the great things that she has gotten for her wedding and it made me think of my own wedding which was not too long ago! I have made thing that included things from the wedding and I wanted to show them to all of you!



This picture is of the picture frame that I got at one of my wedding showers! The flowers are my bridal bouquet and the candles are ones we lite for our unity!


This is a picture of the picture collage that I made from our wedding as well! I took cards that people had given us as well as the napkin and program that was used for the wedding. I love the way that both of these turned out and it is nice to see the nice cards and things without having them in a box somewhere!

My Great Weekend !

First off I have been working a lot these past few weeks, which is great! I got this past weekend off and I completely enjoyed all the time I got to spend with Russ. Usually we end up getting on each others nerves but this weekend was AWESOME! Friday night we went out to eat and to see my sister, she works at Sagebrush, it was great!

Saturday morning we got up, got breakfast at Bojangles and went fishing! Russ and I fished with minnows and worms. Russ caught 2 2lb bass and some little fish! I on the other hand caught not a dang thing! I had 5 bites on my line and every time the fish would get away, it was a bummer! We then went over to his mom and dad's house to go swimming!


On Sunday we did NOTHING!!! It was the best day of NOTHING I have ever had! We laid around all day and watched t.v. We watched the movie Death Race the actor Jason Statham is a great actor, not too bad on the eyes either! I really love his voice though! Then we watched the movie Baby Mama which was funny! We ordered pizza, which was great, and I ended up going to sleep on the couch at 930!




I bought Cash (our dog) a stuffed Duck which he loves! This is a picture of him with the duck after he began destroying the poor thing!

Graduate!!!

So... even though I graduated I just got my Diploma in the mail!!!! Now I really feel like I graduated! It is funny how the little things can make you feel so different. Now I am just waiting on my test scores to see if I am highly qualified for Kindergarten through Sixth Grade!!!

The warmer it is the more skin I see!

So I work at Kohl's and I love it most of the time. The worst is when it becomes summer time and people come in and are dressed like they are going clubbing. Now I know that the weather is warm and it is nice outside but there is a time and a place for little little skirts and tube tops. I know that some people have great bodies and want to show them off but not these people. We always seem to get the "pick" of the litter with the people that come into our store. I wish that I could carry a camera around. We get the women who are like in there 50's who are trying to look stylish and cute. We also get the really heavy people that are in the juniors sections trying to fit into sizes that were not meant for them at all. It is so funny to see the aray of people that shop in the juniors department.

AWE- SUMMMMM Award

Thanks Amber and Michelle for the Awe-summmmm award!!! :)

With this award you're supposed to list 7 things that make you Awe-Summm and then pass the award on to 7 bloggers you love. Make sure to tag your recipients and let them know they have won! Also link back to the Queen that tagged you.

The 7 things that make me Awe-Summm are:

1-I graduated College

2- I'm a great wife

3- I have awesome friends

4- I love to cook

5- I am looking for a job to teach the little kidos of the world

6- I love to watch CSI

7- I am a great friend !

The 7 people I give this award to are:

1- Rita

2- Michelle

3- Amber

4- Ashley

5- Jill

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7-

Thank you so much it means a lot to me!

Harvest and planting season = free crazy time for me!

Russ has been away on the farm these past few weeks, yeah I know I married a southern boys. Right now it is time for harvesting wheat and planting soybeans!


The big tractor is a John Deere 9500 it is very roomy to ride in and has air and a radio. This is very beneficial so that the farmers do not go crazy. It is also very fun to operate!



This is a John Deere 4440 which is also comes with ac and a radio. This contraption is not very roomy and it hurts your butt if you have to sit in it for a long time. The things on the right are soybeans. They have many different uses and are quite dry when you have to see when they are ready to be harvested. (Russ took me to a field once and showed me the way the "farmers" check to see when they are ready... what a lovely husband) Oh the things we do for "fun."

Any who I have been able to do tons of things around the house now that I am alone and at night. I get to eat supper alone which can sometimes be a big bummer and I also get to watch CSI re-runs. I am in love with CSI I watch Miami, New York, CSI that are new, everything. I love watching a murder being broken down, it seems so real and neat to see how they figure these crimes out. I don't really like to read alot or really like all the crazy drama filled series shows but I do love me some CSI. I record them while I am at work and I get to watch them when I get home.... I love it so much!!!

Also I have found that I am a avid puzzle putter togetherer. I love puzzles and how you have all the pieces but you have to wedge them all together to make something spectacular. The sad thing is, is that I can not walk away from the puzzle until it is together. I just want to see the picture all put together so that I can glue it. I have 4 puzzles now that are done and glued and I have no idea what I am going to do with them. I have found a way to fill my free time but it leaves me with puzzles that hold no purpose.

Working at the Big Kohl's

CLEARANCE... For the past 3 days I have been marking clearance at Kohl's we have tons of clothes that went clearance shorts, spaghetti straps, carpi's, pants, and so much more!!!! If you have time you should really go buy some stuff.

So I love the fact that I have a job, so don't let this rant fool you!

I loath some of the people who come and shop at my store (well not my store but you know.) Kohl's gives people whatever they want and I mean whatever. We have this *wonderful* policy of "YES WE CAN" now I know that this is a little misleading for some of our customers and they think that they can do anything. We had a lady today that only wanted to buy one of the bogo luggage that we have on sale this week. ( I consider bogo crazy for Kohl's because most of the time our sales are better than bogo, anyways) So I give her the stupid luggage for half off "yes we can" policy. Then the lady has these pants that had something on them so I gave her 10% off again "yes we can" policy. Then she says that another pair of pants has a mark since she seen that I gave her 10% off. I could not find a mark and she couldn't find it again so no 10% off. Then she realized that she is spending too much money and has me take some of the clothes that are not clearance off, okay I can do that! She then proceeds to let me know that there is some sort of mysterious mark on the luggage piece that she had... I, however, could not find the mark and she couldn't find it either. She then persisted that we have different lights at customer service to make it harder to find the spot she was looking for, crazy! So I give her another10% off her already lowered priced luggage. Guess what she even has a coupon, how lovely, and aggravating. I wanted to say something to her about all the hassle that she had caused but I did not.

We do have a "YES WE CAN" policy and most of the time people use it when it is important. Some people, like the above lady, seem to know about this and take it for advantage.

The question is how do I relax?

So I think that I am going insane. I have all this free time that I am not use to having since I am finished with school. I know that this is the summer so most people are not in school anymore but I am driving myself crazy. I clean my house like everyday! It isn't that dirty but I find something to clean. I work when most people are at home and am at home when most people are at work so I can't really hangout with people. It is mainly me and the dog from day to day. I cook almost everyday even if there are things already cooked for the day I am cooking for tomorrow! I don't think that I know how to relax!
I don't really like not having plans or really being alone all the time, and it sucks! I'm hoping that I begin to stop thinking about everything in the future. Since I have all of this free time I think about painting the house, working outside in the yard, I make lists of things that I want to do today and the next day. I think about things at night before I try to go to sleep. I JUST CAN"T STOP!!!!! It is driving me and Russ crazy!
I do go to work and I love it there. Well I really don't like work but it gives me something to do and I like that aspect. I don't like retail the customers are HORRIBLE and the people that I work with they are the same way some days. I have a supervisor who really should not be there because she doesn't like to do things and I end up having to do them, yeah me! Work gives me time away from thinking about all the things that I could be doing.

I think that I need to get away and take a vacation!!!

College up to GRADUATION

So I did it!!! I graduated! I think that after you spend your whole life going to school then graduating High School you have so many things to look forward to doing with your life. Some people decide to go straight to work where every they have been working while in school. Some people decide to look for jobs, some get married, have babies and become stay at home moms :) Others go to college just to find out they either don't like it, aren't cut out for it, or just get homesick. While others go to college and graduate. I think that all of the above are all choices that we make for one reason or another. I think that whichever path you have taken makes you who you are and not everyone goes to college and gets a job they were hoping for anyways.
As excited as I was to go to college I was also nervous. I started off at UNC Greensboro, which I loved, for Deaf Education, which I also love. I loved the school and all the great people that I met while I was there, I met some really great friends. From a mishap that my mom ex-husband had two and a half years later I moved back home to take care of my brother. I decided to go to UNC Charlotte. The great thing about UNC Charlotte was that my three bestest friends went there and I was able to room with one of them. I loved being there because I knew people and was close to home. I also loved getting to spend time with my besties that I had not seen since High School. Our last year together we got an on campus apartment and had some of the best times. I miss those times. I think that since then we have moved and lived with our sweeties :) I kept going to school even living in Waxhaw (45 minutes away) and having to travel. I kept telling myself I had to do it because I had gone this far. I had some awesome encouragement from many of the great people in my life.
So finally my student teaching... I forgot that I was even in school some days even though I was teaching. I loved doing it and knew that this is the reason that I was going to be graduating. I think that this last semester was the greatest because it really made me push to the extra limit. And then I did it... I graduated. I felt like I had gone to school for my whole life and I have only been out for 2 days but i feel like I should have a job and be doing the job. I knew that this was not going to happen, but in all due time I guess.

My 8 things... why not!

Everyone else is doing it, so why not!

8 Things I Look Forward To:
1. Graduation
2. Finding a job
3. Having a baby
4. Paying off my student loans
5. Russ and I paying off our cars
6. Having enough money to blow
7. Getting my masters in something
8. Our 10 year anniversary

8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1. Cleaned the house
2. Went to work
3. Put gas in my car
4. Watched a rerun of the hills
5. Made mini pizzas out of English muffins
6. Paid the car insurance
7. Slept forever in the morning
8. Glued the puzzles together

8 Things I Love:
1. Russ
2. Old couples who are nice to each other
3. Seeing babies
4. Getting a pedicure
5. Chicken
6. being able to ride with the windows down
7. having a clean house
8. cupcakes

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:
1. Spend more time with my mom
2. Win the lottery
3. Go on vacation whenever I wanted
4. Lost weight
5. Not have to shave
6. Have a permanent tan
7. Live in the middle of nowhere
8. Not worry

8 Shows I Watch:
1. Jon and Kate plus eight
2. Baby story
3. Bridezilla
4. My big redneck wedding
5. Suite life of Zack and Cody
6. Wizards of Waverly Place
7. Golden Girls
8. Anything Disney

Graduations on the way!

Student teaching is over (tear.) I loved my cooperating teacher, the kids in my class, and all the people at the school. I felt excepted into the teacher world while I was there, it was great! I loved teaching, playing with the children, and overall learning from them as well as the teachers. I know know so much more than you could ever learn from a book. I am lucky to have been able to have this experience. The best part is that I made an A.
I was so sad on Friday because it was my last day at the school. I kept telling myself I was not going to get upset, but really that is not me. All the kids went to the carpet and were strangely really quiet and then my teacher posed the question "what should we do?" Some of the children said have a birthday party. They don't really know about different kinds of parties and that is what they are use to having parties for so that was cute. So I was given a present and as I oped it all the children were staring at me to see my expression. They had made me a book of all the things that we had done together, I cried, of course. The children were asking if I was alright because I was crying, My teacher had to explain that adults cry because they are happy sometimes. Then all the children all gave me a big hug, which did not help the crying situation. We had a cake made from cupcakes, my favorite. She read the Dr. Seuss book Hooray for Diffendoofer Day, it was great!

This Saturday I will be GRADUATING!!! I am excited as well as scared! I am so excited because I will have more time to spend with my honey, my family and friends. I am scared because I don't know about finding a job or what I am going to do with all of this free time I am going to have now! I guess I have been in school so long that it is going to feel really weird not to go to the University, have homework or have to listen to some teacher talk and have to take note! I am trilled that that is over! I have plans to go to school to do different things and hopefully that will come true, with this economy who knows! I am just so exciting to be accomplishing all the "big humps" in life (getting married and graduating) you hope that you will accomplish these goals but you never really know if they are going to happen. I am so glad that I was able to get to this place in my life....
Next Hump :
Finding a job
Keeping the job
Having a little one

My b-day

I just want to thank everyone for all the b-day wishes! Russ and I had an awesome time on my b-day!!!! He started the day off rather crazy because he misplaced his wedding ring but we found it under our bed, crazy! Then he told me that I needed to be ready at 7 and would not tell me for what or why. I was ready and he took me to Nakato's, we had never been. It was amazing and I loved the show and food. We came home and ate cupcakes that he had made me and they were delicious!

Great weather... lets plant

So Russ and I have had 2 wonderful sunny days together! We had decided that we wanted to make our yard look really pretty this year! On Friday Russ brought home the skid steerer. When it rained really bad one weekend the end of our driveway washed out and there was a dip. I had been requesting that he bring something home to fix the road, and he did!!!

I had decided that I wanted to make our flower beds look colorful so my grandmother and I picked out places for all of our bulds and seeds to go. I planted some zinnias, sweet peas, calla lily's (pink and yellow), gladiolus, and multicolored lily's. Russ also got two azalea bushes for free so we planted them. Today Russ' mom and I went to Laney's (a nursery) and got a rose bush (pink) and a azalea (hot pink). Russ got two azaleas (a small pink one and a small white one) for free!!!! So we have spent the day planting these flowers.

ROSE BUSH Azalea
We also went to Lowe's and picked up some petunias, because I love them so, and I planted them for my porch.




I hope that all of our flowers come up this year because I have worked really hard digging and watering and trying to find the right place for all the flowers. I just love spring, all the flowers, and all the great smells that go along with the season.

Our new title

I have decided to change the name of our blog because everyone was changing theirs to these catchy, fun titles. So Russ and I came up with our new name and we love it because it describes our professions. Russ grades land for housing developments and what not and I will be grading papers or grading myself on how I am doing as a teacher. I thought that this name was really great! If you have any other suggestions or think that this is great just let me know what you think!! Thanks!!!!

Music and Relaxation

This is such an important part of my life, music! I'm not sure if you ever get caught up into a song that reminds you all the things that have happened to you. I have songs that I can remember from childhood that really speak to me. My mom was a mother who would not allow us to watch television so most of the time we danced around the house and sang to all different types of songs. I find myself many days sitting in the house with the music on and singing out loud or dancing crazy! Music to me is a stress reliever and a relaxation technique for me. I listen to the beat, the words and many songs I take a meaning from. I listen to angry kick someone's ____ music or I will listen to really soothing songs, other times I just want to sing my heart out and sometimes get out a good cry. My favorite place to listen to music is in the car. I feel that when you are in the car you are in your own world. You control the music, your speed, and inadvertently your current and future mood.

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I met a man today who was talking about taking time everyday for yourself. Many people have forgotten how to take time for themselves throughout the day. We have to be teachers, mothers, friends, a wife, a homemaker, a daughter, a sister, a mentor, and that is just the beginning. We as females are expected to fill so many roles throughout our day. Many times we are expected to always be happy, respectful, polite, and caring. Sometimes we want to be mean, say really hurtful and ugly things but most times we are not willing to let people see that side of us. We never feel like we get enough alone time or even any time to just breath throughout the day. We did a meditation exercise. I felt a little taken back at first but then I saw that by sitting, closing your eyes and just breathing that things either sweep out of your mind or rush in. Some people are afraid of the silence while others appreciate quiet. I am one who loves noise (music.) I believe that even though sometimes our lives get really stressful and as humans we really are constantly being driven to do more and push ourselves. My things is that we have to take sometime either in the morning, in the middle of the day or right before bed to clear our thoughts and just relax. I know some think its impossible but I will tell you that I relax when I am in the car driving somewhere and it is so nice. Music is my relaxation. Find what brings you peace.... maybe it is spending time with you friends, a night out with your other half, spending time time with your children, or reading a book. Just remember to cherish every moment of everyday because that might just be the memory that helps us get through the day!

Spring Cleaning Fever

For those of you who know me know that I am a clean freak! For some reason lately I have been slacking which is really upsetting. Last night when I got home from work I had this obsession to clean or really organize things. I stayed up last night until 1 organizing my closet, under the sinks, the blanket closet, my coat closet that is not really for coats, and my dresser drawers. I have made a list of all the things that I want to accomplish throughout the house.
I feel like if I get things organized around the house and outside then my life will seem to be a lot simpler in different areas of my life. It is also funny to see things that I thought were lost but I am able to find them while I am cleaning. I also have tons of crafty things that I was given when russ' grandmother passed away. These crafty things are sitting all over my spare bedroom and it is driving me crazy. Russ bought two big totes so that I could go through the boxes and bags that I was given and decide what things I might be able to use when I become a teacher. I am thrilled to see how organized I can get and to see if being organized really makes me relax or if I stress over where I put things.

A 360 for now

Somethings in life don't seem to come so easy for me. I have a tough time being mean to people or saying how I really feel. I think this is because I am afraid of hurting someones feelings. For some reason this does not pertain to Russ. Although I do not want to be mean sometimes I get so annoyed by the stupid things that he does or does not do that I just want to explode.
Recently he has not been working a lot and has most of the day to sit at home and hangout. I don' t mind that he does this but I hate that he will sit on the computer or watch television all day. You can see what he has done all day because everything that he ate or drank will be around that area. The thing that bothers me the most is that he will sit there all day, with all that stuff, and wait until I get home and say something like "I've been doing stuff all day." I think that this is hilarious. I was unaware that being lazy was actually doing something.
We also have issues because sometimes if I know that he is going to be at home I will leave him a few things that he can do until I get home. Half of the time his excuse for not doing the list is that "I was watching a movie" or " I was playing with the dog." Really I mean a movie does not last all day and I know that he is not going to play with the dog for that long.
We had a really long talk Thursday about how frustrated I have became lately. I teach and work and so everything around the house. I know that I probably started our relationship by taking over and doing everything because he worked so much but I am now realizing that I can't do everything. Back to our talk, we discussed how we never have time to spend with each other and how he gets to go out on the weekend with his friends while I am working. We talked and I really think that this talk really sank in (knock on wood.) This weekend he has been so helpful doing whatever I ask, doing things that he sees needs to get finished, he actually stayed at home even though I had to work late and we actually spent some much needed time together even though I worked all weekend. Sometimes long talks and a few impolite words can get you what you want, maybe not forever but at least for right now!